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Sunday, October 08, 2006

clear your ears, open your eyes,

FU XINYAN IS PACKING UP HER WADROBE!

hahahas* i.e. ironing, folding, packing.

i think i really need a maid in future. this is such a chore - it takes up so much time, and nothing much is done. by the way, it's 2am in the morning, and i'm doing this because housekeeping is DEFINITELY going to start their room checks again. (now that Cherie is back with her duty, going around giving people the Daffy Ducks - Please drop by Mrs. Macarto's office within 24hours.) people, for your info, i've gotten that twice. if i were to get it again within this semester, it's community work. pray hard*

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as my msn nick spells, even the best things occur at the wrong time. if you guys are misled into thinking that it has gotta do with mr doraemon, nahh. hahas* don't think too far okies? nothing good will come up between me and him. it's either bad or worse, never the word good, what more, best. hahas* (do i sound like i'm laughing for the sake of laughing? i think i should sigh instead.)

i no longer bear the thought about going to Cornell. I don't want to adapt anymore. Even beth and amy are asking me to go for it. they know that i'm dying to go there, i really am. cornell, an ivy league school okies... it's not any other 'long kang' university. it's the best in the world for hospitality.

this sounds like a good news isn't it? but it sounds more like a bad news to my friends. My super darling (especially) and darling cow can no longer talk to me on msn... it's like 12hours difference. double of what it is now. It's a goodbye to my clique - Beth, Amy, Kelvin, my darlings and my indo clique, my not-very-nice roommate, whom i will still miss as a classmate, my council, my seniors. I will miss them truckloads. I am gonna be further away from Singapore, further away from You... we will no longer chat, eventually losing contact - what i've always wanted.

Amy cried awhile ago. Maybe i shouldn't have broke the news to her today. Saddened by the fact that she has taken the wrong step down the wrong path was bad enough, and all i did was to proliferate the pain she is going through. She lost her BF, she lost the most valuable thing in her life, and now, she's gonna lose her best butt here. I was on the verge of crying too... Because it seems like i've brought more trauma than anything else. Guilt-ridden-.

okies, no more the idea of Cornell. i'm dropping it. i will make the best out of it here. everything is going to be a-okie. =)

i can be so swift in my decision making when it comes to serious matters like this. why not when it comes to you? there is this tiny weeny lil bit of me wanting to hold on.

people, jiayou jiayou jiayou! =)=)=)

61days to Singapore!
owwwwwwwwwwww.
i miss everything and everyone there. =)

Charmaine.@8:06 AM
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