StillMorphing, IntoWhat, IHaveNoIdea.

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

i got my honours.

8.8.

UNHAPPY.

POUTS.

Charmaine.@1:08 AM
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Monday, December 18, 2006

FINALLY found a chance to blog. Guess everyone must have thought that I've vanished or something, gotta take this opportunity to apologize to every single one of you whom I'm supposed to meet sometime or another. Fell sick the weekend I returned to Singapore, still pushing myself to work on Monday (worked till an unearthly hour of 1am) and practically dropped dead on Tuesday. Hence, becoming the first intern ever, who is on medical leave on the second official day of work. Well O well, it doesn't matter. Working hours: 10.30 / 12nn - 3-4pm 6.15pm - 12+mn. broke down on thursday with regards to this. working environment is bearable with people like adrica and azlam. the rest are okie, but the fucking stewarding auntie simply has an issue with me, EACH fucking day. but who the fuck cares?! i gave her my piece of mind anyways.

yesterday was my first off day. headed down to vivo, taka, wisma, bugis and marina sq. fyi, i soiled my gucci shoes cause of my blister on my right foot. and mind you, i took a TRAIN down from bugis to city hall, disregarding the cabbing down from vivo to taka, and wisma to bugis. hahahas* and someone just couldn't differentiate between bugis and marina sq. vivo isn't worth sucha great hooha. metaphorically speaking, a bimbo. pretty on the outside, empty on the inside. i was kinda dead by the time we reached bugis, didn't really have the energy to crap in the train on the way to marina sq. my day was filled with noise, so much so that, i find it unbearable to live without it throughout yesterday. went to kino to get my french book, and i found out how the french language could be slaughtered so brutally when one can't speak french...

aller: in the french way - ah-lay
aller: in the ENGLISH way - ALL-ER

hahahahas* what entertainment.

and i met ALWIN NJOO. god bless me mann. IT IS SO DAMN FARKINGLY SCREWED. but can i mention that his dress sense was horrid to begin with?! it was so not the usual him.

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on a more emotional note,

"Why haven't you found a bf?"

pause.

"Why must have?!"

GOBLOK.
must i spell it out that
YOU ARE STILL THE ONE.

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what am i to do when you know things will never be?
and you just want to live with it this way?

'nuff said.

smiles still fill my life, pretty much.

Charmaine.@12:20 AM
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Tuesday, December 05, 2006

can't bear to leave switzerland VS homesick

i was in my jeans, rock and roll tee and nike bag when i first came here. it was raining, exactly the way it is now. then, filled with fear, anticipation, despair. i was too busy to cry, too busy to worry, everything fell in place, automatically.

4 months flew by just like that. leaving this place for the next 7 months, our council stepped down for the semester, my classmates leaving, moving, going away from this school, another welcome day ended like that, our christmas lunch and prize giving ceremony closed the semester. the many many things that have happened over this 120 days. be it good, or bad, i miss everything here. my PGD, PGC friends, hopefully in this 茫茫人海中 i will get to see them again someday.

my resolution is half fulfilled over this four months. my honours, shouldn't be a problem till now. but the other half of my resolution, will never be fulfilled even in the next lifetime i guess. promised mama that you will never be on my mind, at least by the end of this semester. mama must be so disappointed with me, no wonder she gave up on me forgetting you. sigh. you are really something...

to be continued...

Charmaine.@12:04 AM
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Monday, December 04, 2006

she likes him
she likes him
she likes him

and i like him.

he likes me

he likes you.

who are you?
who is he?
who is him?

this is driving me up the wall.

but i'm sure

you like him.

Charmaine.@1:45 AM
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Saturday, December 02, 2006

MUGGING IN PROCESS.

DO NOT DISTURB.

Charmaine.@7:12 PM
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i was so happy about my award, when the entire wotrld congratulated me about getting the award. Then the shortlisted idol from a country that starts with P, came into my room and told me "T and me can just not go for Accounting exam, since we need a negative 4.5 to fail our exams."

okie fuck. i feel soooo fucked up now, although i will definitely get my honours. the worse i will get is a 8.6. and with my additional 0.2 credit, i have no idea why i feel so fucked up. tell me that i will be fine.

anyhows, i am happy for now. at least i have my 0.2 extra credits. sigh.

Charmaine.@7:21 AM
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Friday, December 01, 2006

I have done you all proud.
Papa
Mama
Darlings
Besties
Girlies
Students

I didn't let you all down.

Most outstanding student award.
The only girl.
The only asian.

I did it. =)=)=)

Charmaine.@11:42 PM
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TWO DOWN,
THREE LEFT.

HOLD ON.
THAT'S WHAT I NEED TO DO.

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SIX DAYS TO HOME.

I MISS YOU TO BITS.
just what can i do.
GAWD.

Charmaine.@2:45 AM
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