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Thursday, September 28, 2006

i'm pretty much dead. because, i think, i kinda miss talking to you. I thought i was strong, i thought thinking about you would soon be gone. I told myself i could, but i realised that i was impossible. Holding back the tears is tiring, suppressing the feeling is unimaginable. I did, for the last few days. While talking to miss Cow and darling today, I finally cried. I finally let it out. I know, crying out that day about my results was just another excuse for me to cry because of you. Why you? Of all people, you.

Three of a kind. Miss Cow, Darling, Me. Stuck in a situation that we hate. When will we get out of it? My msn nick: Brave the storm. Embrace the rain. We are going through the storm now, come what may, accept it. Stop thinking about forgetting them I guess. He will just be buried in some corner of my heart. Just like the previous one. The only difference is that, this time, there is more tears, more fear, more thought, and more weariness. Of course, with no reciprocation. Of course I never hoped for that to start with. So it was just me, who placed myself in so much misery.

I just wonder how to face you in December. Maybe, I shouldn't even meet you. If only you know that someone in Singapore is dying to talk to you each time you are online, as for me... I just want to avoid you every single time you talk to me. If possible, let it go on this way. Don't talk to me, at least in the near future.

Everything will be fine. Everything will.

The only good news for now - I have an additional 0.1 academic point for my overall results. =)

But this probably only pulled me back from my disgusting hotel operations presentation... 7.4. KILL ME. i spent all my time and effort and that's what i have. thanks to _________________ for their ______________. fugly shiat. my roommate was over the moon to know that we were like 3rd lowest out of the 7 groups in class. She did better than me, and she tracks my results. stalker. how scary. but she was so pissed that she didn't get any extra academic points. owwww. sad.

i'm back on track. i will be okie. get my priorities right.

Beth and I are going around Switzerland mann!!!! =)=)=)

shall upload photos soon. Went to indo night yesterday. My Yenna, Mervi, JeJe darlings! U Beth darling darling! Yuri fellow 1/2 Sporean!

don't worry okie my SUPER DARLING, you are the DARLING DARLING DARLING! =)

SINGAPORE, i miss u MANN!!! hahahas* (the indos realised that yuri and i always say mann. and they asked us, is this the special thing about singlish... we were like, THERE IS MORE TO COME MANNNNN!!!)

hahahas* so what's up mannnnn! hahahas* mood is okie oreadi mannn! =)=)=)

Accounting! here i come mannnnnn! hahahas*

Charmaine.@3:09 AM
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