StillMorphing, IntoWhat, IHaveNoIdea.

Monday, September 11, 2006

i want a never ending fairytale. i don't want an ending. not even a happy one. i just want things to stay the way it is. Even if it is because i'm living in my small little bubble. i'm contented. =)

indispensible.
irreplaceable.

hopefully they will do well for their prelims. praying hard-.

how many of them are gonna be my junior, i wonder.

i flared at up at groupmate today. and i shouted at him in the club. i've never seen such a fucked up group member in my life. who can sound so full of himself when his brain is not even bigger than a pea. so he doesn't even live up to the 'pea brain' lowly title when we call stupid people. i didn't give a damn. you don't do your work, you pay the price. and he actually said, CHINA PEOPLE ARE UNITED! THEY WILL LET ME SAY SOMETHING. heyy, stop being so fucked up mann. WAKE UP. one - china people are ashamed enough to have the same nationality as a screwed up ass like you, and you saying that you all are united. ohmygawd. two - let you say something. ya, say shiat maybe. you not only screw up your own grade, their grades, and MY grade. to let you screw up my grade is a no-no. i'm selfish. i don't want to get a BASIC bachelor's degree because of you. NO WAY. i can't even afford to drop to a merit. if i see you at semester 4 really, you should be damn glad. because you must have smoked your way through. i will only think of you sweeping the school floor at some point of time doing community work because of your superb grades, or begging the school to take you back with your tons of money. when they say money is everything, i gotta agree. with the amount of money that HE HAS, i tell you, he can kill someone with that, literally. but what to do? he can't even bear to part with 36 francs to send us to vevey. therefore, bothering to put that lil bit of effort to go vevey with us, as an, EXTRA. good enough, my debate skills hasn't dropped too much. scolded the hell out of him, till he was at a loss of words, and his FELLOW CHINA PEOPLE, apparently saw where i was coming from, totally agreeing with me, and giving him a earful. UNITED china people? in his dreams. it's EQUALITY and nothing else you screwed up piece of shiat. 19years of my life and no one ever talked to me like this, you being rich short and stupid trying to talk to me in that way? wait till i get my honours degree, i will throw it at your face. FUCK.

been so pissed these two days. i wonder what the hell does my motivation do. it doesn't even brighten up my day that much. when will you stop being the motivation. haiz.

PMS-ing i guess. my body system is going cranky. maybe cause of the weather and stuff. no lessons tomorrow morning. shall continue with my project stuff first. for now, let me just sink into my world of fairytale. =)

Charmaine.@4:31 AM
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