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Monday, June 05, 2006

it dawned on me that one of Queen Bitch's post epitomizes his/her own flairs and flaws. since i'm bored enough to start reflecting, i've decided to adapt the idea after all.

i was that baby girl born on eighth may nineteen eighty seven, in gleneagles hospital at half past noon. i was the joy of the middle aged couple who finally see their only offspring after having 13 offsprings and 6 offsprings on the maternal and paternal side respectively. And that leaves this poor offspring to have the cousin nearest to her age to be thirteen years older than her.

i was that baby who stared at her doctor while he was giving her the various jabs when she was only about a year old. i was that baby who stared at her mother as if she owed me a million dollars, and that scared the poor mother quite a bit, thinking that she brought the wrong baby home.

i was that three year old toddler who suffered a weird alternate squint eye problem. i was that daring toddler who ran out of the operation theatre at the National Eye Centre, only to be gullible enough to be dragged back into the operation theatre because they told me that i had a balloon to play with in there (threw me back onto the operation table, then i realised that it was the oxygen mask that was the ballloon.)

i was that studious prefect (aka toot kia) who spotted the bowl-like hairstyle all the way till p6 before i insisted that i try to leave my hair alone before it reaches the shoulder. i was one of the three organ players in school who had her first solo performance before the entire school during speech day, playing 'if we hold on together'. Ironically, my secondary school's theme song. Well, it's fated.

i was that toot-yet-cannot-make-it EM1 kid who scored a Superb two hundred and eighteeen points for PSLE and landed herself into none of her six choices. Only to be demoralised further when she went to her sixth choice and was asked to go to their LESS-CHALLENGING course by their DM.

i was that all-out-to-win student in sec1, who goes all out even for a stupid CNY classroom deco competition. i was that bilingual emcee who emceed all events ranging from CNY to the Move-In ceremony. i was that Head of Accounts in SC who eventually took up the unknown Head of Proposal Writing position and ended up forking out more than a hundred bucks for the unaccounted ties and badges, courtesy of the darling council peeps who never bothered to return. i was that same fella who was scolded for no apparent reason by the DM in sec3, and actually cried in school for the first time (and obviously couldn't be bothered to reply the DM when he spoke to me). i was that everything-also-must-join-in student who was the second speaker during the JG debates. i was that wu4-da3-wu4-zhuang4 suddenly became company leader of Guides.

i was that kiasi fella who was so afraid tt relationships would ruin my fabulous testimonial. i was that descriptive-essay girl who the HOD was so pissed with because i was just one of those who didn't make the A1 grade. i was that stubborn-swollen-red-eyed girl who went for the chinese oral examination immediately after her grandmother's funeral.

i was that same kid repressed under the education system and apparently unleashed her not v.guai nature in jaysee. the one who decided to pon endless econs lectures and assembly sessions which can be turned into much more meaningful biatching and slacking and sleeping sessions. i was that noisy girl with whizzy who gave our math teacher amazingly nonsensical ways to get to the answer. i was that debate society secretary who decided to pon debate and hit town with wulan. hahas* i was that enthusiastic OGL in the anti-Leonard Genesis II. i was that mentor to Sheryl of TMPS who tried to extort a computer and handphone from me on her birthday. Whatthehell. i was no-longer-that-guai-kia i used to be.

i was that 'part-time cleaner' in hai sing catholic, who cabs down to clean the floor everyday. i was that cleaner who got herself into deep shiat all thanks to Queen Bitch and his ethical issues. then she landed herself into greater shiat when she got entangled into another situation. i was that cleaner who coached the sec4s english oral and became the part-time caretaker of the library so that the sec1s and 4s can come into slack. i was that dun-look-like-teacher teacher who is going to miss this school when she leaves.

i was that not-very-safe driver who drove at 80km/h and jammed break and shocked the instructor awake. i was that zhi2-zhuo2 girl who held on to nothing for 3years, only to realise that nothing was supposed to be something. i was that absurd girl who told someone that she's a butch so that he will back off. i was that abstract-thinking fella who wants to distance herself as much as possible from the guy she now likes, though she has truckloads to tell him.

i was that possessive friend who doesn't want to share her best butts with the accquaintance. i was that fortunate girl who has a bunch of friends from the different stages of her life to support her through the ups and downs in life.

i was that materialistic girl who wants to stay in the orchard condominium with her mini schnauzer with a tiara on that velvet cushion. i am still that materialistic girl who aims to drive a mini cooper and hermes birkin, LV, Loewe, blah blah blah by 30.

however, i am still who i am for now.
that same old plain jane.

Charmaine.@7:24 PM
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