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Friday, September 30, 2005

Some unhappy things after Prelims:
- An ex close friend didn't do very well this time round. I did feel bad in some way, since I didn't bother to shower any concern on her, despite knowing the state she is in. Being cynical, as I always am, realised that in some way, I'm glad that she gets a taste of what her good friend is really like.
- I can no longer get to spend time in C11, with rainbow, cloud and drizzle. The memories of my bonding with them, I suppose, started there?
- After a chat with a close friend of mine, I realised that the facade each person can put on is - Facinating.
- My ONLY hope for econs - MCQ. And I scored a not very respectable score of 19. Which makes me lose the glimmer of hope of passing for Econs.

Some happy things after Prelims:
- Drizzle completed her Art!!! Applause!!! A magnificant piece indeed. Of course, courtesy of Us! hahaha* Especially rainbow, who made washing of bottles her hobby.
- Full House marathon - 6pm to 1pm. How's that? Haha*
- The fetish for RAIN and FULL HOUSE, led to the mutation of the song 3 bears and the creation of our nicknames. Which then again, makes me wonder, if this is a happy thing. HMMM...
- A rough plan for a food fest - Hunt around Singapore for food. Next destination - NYDC. I've got discount!
- Did I mention that I got a B for my Chinese? Record breaking. I suppose the teacher was shocked, I mean UTTERLY shocked. Imagine one who speaks horrible chinese in class. HA* What a joke. Well, she commented that my classmate didn't study since he got 65, and I did very well when I got 67.5. GREAT disparity, isn't it? But I'm satisfied with the grade.
- I'm happy for the burgeoning bond. Even my close friend could sense that I'm happier now. What more can I ask? Life ABSOLUTELY RAWKS now. It's much simpler, much happier.

Didn't want to say this infront of Drizzle, so afraid that she couldn't walk out of Sakae ( head too big ) Hahaha* Life is much better now. Don't have to care about how one thinks, or feel. It's very direct now, what we feel or think is written on the face. No more facade, no more thinking. No more deciphering or hiding. Life is really better this way. Hopefully everyone can be like this too. Maybe in time to come, everyone will be like that, right?

I know I'm deceiving myself.

Charmaine.@11:12 PM
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