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Wednesday, August 31, 2005

Isn't it great when you finish typing your entry, and *POOF* it disappears when your laptop screen turns jet black? The best part - It can't be recovered. So I shall retype it again. Today's a continuation of MiMi day. Was reminiscing my carefree first three months in teejay, those memorable times with Shumin, when I was helping Saint with her bottles today. Finally get to relive those days, today. Never felt more like myself throughout this year. So carefree and noisy. I'm finally myself again. A simple case in point for being an oxymoron. ( not CLICHE.. haha* kiddin! )

Put away the number 1, number 2, number 3. I don't want to rank my friends anymore. I don't want to say that she is no longer my number 1. I cannot bring myself to say that. I prefer to keep it the way it is. That of course, has to depend on my ability. My ability to continue to put on this facade. It's tiring, really tiring. But I'm already sick of breaking down. Let this be a learning point, may us be stronger and more matured.

Maybe it is no longer important to me that I am anyone's number 1. It is too, no longer important to me whoever my number 1 is. But I know that I have my besties, and st.doc.ostracised to whine to. ( Saint, please cherish this entry, because I hardly praise people in my blog. If you want, you can print it out and frame it. I won't really mind. Haha. )

Doc always potrayed this unapproachable image to me. From Day 1 I knew her, I suppose. Never have I ever expected that she's just like anyone of us. One thing I can be glad about, is to know her beyond the superficial surface.

I'm learning to cherish. But this time, in a different way. I don't need to be a number 1 to anyone, but they will always be my number 1. C= Life isn't that bad after all, isn't it?

Life can be beautiful. That is, if you want it to be.

Charmaine.@9:43 PM
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